Im a b*&%$# in the morning....

Im going crazy,have been for the past few days.
Im panicking about everything and anything and worrying at the same time,disgusting combination!Ive been driving Bk up the wall with my endless pouting and sulking and as always Im wondering how he hasn't gone mad himself.Instead of telling me to get lost he's called every night and tried to make me feel better.*blush* Lucky me.
So why am I worried? Im graduating this weekend,my research paper was accepted for the research conference thingy at University which means I have to find funds to attend the conference,prepare for the presentation and prepare a short biography.My graduation has created humungous headaches for me. The shoes my cousin sent aren't here yet and might not get here in time because there was a postal strike in the UK plus she fears the shoe might be too small.Go figure,that would just be friggin fantastic.
I spent the better part of the week running around looking for a dinner dress and again I am reminded why it sucks to be in Africa!!!!Lots of casual clothes here but nothing for special occassions,unless your aim is to look like a beauty pagent contestant.
So I decided ufck it,Ill ho it out (shout out to Amber Rose!) this time and bought a long top that shall serve as my dress for the night,lol,Im shameless!But Ill do it with self respect,I will make sure I dont bend over or sit without my legs being crossed.See?Self respect!
My biggest problem though is my amazingly over inflated expectations.In my head this weekend is supposed to be super duper fantastic! At first I wasn't excited but then I let myself get excited and now Im just worried my expectations won't be met and so far thats the way things seem to be headed.crap! Ah well,Ill find other reasons to celebrate in my life so Ill just try and make the most of it.

[This totally has nothing to do with the post but my cousin keeps talking to me tho I have headphones on and Im clearly busy typing somethin....weird.I say "hmmm" or nod every now and then,lmao!Im evil]