Girl Talk....

Being a female i understand that gossiping is pretty much part of our DNA and I have fallen victim many times before to the occasional corner huddle with friends talking about “ooooooh girl i heard that...” and “mmmm hmmmm, apparently....”
Its addictive, quite unproductive and fun until its you they’re talking about.
I made a mistake some time in my past that involved a “lover”, some nude photographs and the internet which kinda made me topic of the day for a while.
A friend of mine came to Botswana on a business trip and I asked him if he heard about the photo’s and his expression told me that he’d not only seen them but had had many discussions about my scandalous activities with some friends while enjoying a beer or two. I still shudder to imagine how many weirdo’s had copied and pasted the photo.
And while I was in Uni because of the number of male friends i had every so often a rumour would come up about me dating or wanting so and so. I would hear how so and so doesn’t like you because you’re moving in on her man and etc. sigh.
So I got a little taste of what it was like to receive fake smiles from the same people who were spreading the stories. Why don’t people just live and let live?
In the same vein I refrain from divulging my personal stories to girls because plainly put I just don’t trust them. Twice I have told people I thought I could trust and people i thought had the sense to not broadcast everything I tell them, private stories and twice I was proven very wrong. In both cases the person that was the subject of the story came to me and asked why i felt it necessary to spread their personal stories.ugh!!How the ufck do you go straight to the subject and tell them everything and on top of that tell them your source?????really???
And this apprehension I have includes females in my family. After all if I wanted everyone to discuss my business with everyone I would just talk about it when they are all present or do the leg work and tell people individually.
And the number one thing I hate and try to avoid is groups of girls discussing matters of the heart. No valuable piece of advice concerning love has ever come out of a group of females in my experience. None. Notice I use the word group; I can get good advice out of one person most times but a group? Nope. It’s akin to mob mentality. Usually it’s just “let’s get him!” type of advice. They tell you shit like “dump him!” just bcz he didn’t call or chose to hang with his friends on one night instead of you, as though you’re the model girlfriend (no one is perfect).And any paranoia they have from their own relationships they come and dump it on you and most times it bears no relevance.
And when their irrational uninformed baseless thoughts become your thoughts: Houston! We have a problem!!
So I now attempt to keep my personal issues to myself save for the few people I actually trust and I only take advice from people who have proven themselves in the past.

And I was like;why you so obsessed with me?

I heard they existed but to be honest in the back of my mind I never really thought there were mad girls out there.
Ok so Ive known this girl since my 3rd year of Uni (lets call her Piggy) and we aren't what you'd call friends but we say hi to each other if we meet and force a conversation.
Now Piggy's been dating a guy who is a "friend" of my other half:Bk.Whenever Piggy and her boyfriend had a fight she'd run to my other half for advice and I guess for whatever reason she feels that brought them closer.
Then she heard we broke up and she began hitting on my other half in hopes of getting something going but he ignored her advances.
She thought maybe it had to do with me bcz there was a time she called Bk at 1am while he was hanging with me and started begging him to come see her,he told her he was with me and couldnt come but she didnt believe him so he put me on the phone,I said hi and she hung up.
Then a few days later she asked me if I was still dating him and if the reason we broke up was cz of her (someone thinks highly of themselves),I said no to both questions and she seemed to accept it.
Now Yesterday her dellusions reached new levels.He went to visit his friends and Piggy happened to be there.I called him and sent him a text after the call askin him to call me and tell me he loved me (i was trying to get him to be mushy in front of his friends,lol!).But what I didnt know was that his phone battery had died and he had put his sim card in Piggys phone.After he took his card back the text remained in her phone and she got all freaked out,called me and asked me why I was stalking him and trying to get back with him,hahahahahaha!!!stupid girl.Stalkin him?right.During the night she sent me loads of texts askin me to leave him alone and back off and blah blah blah blah.And yet she has a boyfriend.I don't understand what's going on in her head.
And what amazes me is that when we meet she'll act like everythings fine,ugh.stupid girl.Can't waste my time humouring her stupidity,i believe if you play with monkeys you become one so no Piggy!!!I refuse to join the monkey party!

I didn't know my own strength..

Just finished watching the Whitney Houston interview with Oprah and wow!That woman has amazed me!For once we get a celebrity interview with a celebrity who actually wants to be honest.
At first my cousins and I were looking at her like "WTF!!!This woman is crazy!!" Especially when she was talking about how much she loved Bobby Brown and the way they would get high together and fight in front of their parents and daughter.Apparently there was a time she hit Bobby Brown so hard that he passed out and was bleeding,talk about drama!!!!Then my favourite part was when she was tellin Oprah how she used to lace her weed with coke,Whitney is jus so many levels of gangster!!!hahahahaha!!!She made her husband look like such a mad man.She said he painted on the walls of the house cz he was trying to be an artist,and she said that with heavy sarcasm.Then she mentioned how he cut her head off a family portrait,I think he needs to seek some proffessional help!
Hearing all this I really wouldn't be suprised if the daughter pulled an Amy Winehouse,lol!She even took her daughter with her to some rehab center,lmao!Oprah just nodded but her face was saying "What the hell is wrong with u!!!????Your took your child with you to rehab????",hahahahahahahahaha!!!
But what amazes me is she came out of that mess,at least it seems so and Im hoping so too.Now her song "I didnt know my own strength" has so much meaning after watching that interview.
People think it takes strength to get out of a crap situation and thats true but i think it takes just as much strength to fall into it.How long can ur body tolerate smoking coke everyday?If you can do that for years and not break then chances are you can get out of it as well.Jus point that energy in a different different direction.
Weirdly enough I think she's made it into my role model books.Cz she's not perfect and she's honest about it.I hope she's being for real though,really want her to make it.

Another Tyra Show.....

Watching another Tyra show and gosh she amazes me every week!But this week she's not being the idiot,her guests are.
She had a fat woman in her show today complaining that her family is always teasing her about loosing weight. She was so gung-ho about "they are wrong" etc etc but the whole time I was thinkin ummmmm....have u ever thought that maybe you DO need to lose weight?Im not being mean,the girl covered a third of the couch.Im jus sayin,I know its not as easy as saying it but she needs to acknowledge that their words have some truth to them and she should stop using the teasing as an excuse to stay fat.
On the flip side she had a guest who was skinny/slim and has fat friends who tease her about her lack of weight.Hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha!!!!!Really???Weird.Then people from the audience who I thought looked normal stood up and said they could relate because they were trying crazy things to gain weight like taking birth control pills or going on fattening diets.What is wrong with this world????
Why cant u just accept what you cannot change?If your metabolism has the speed of light then there's not much you can do.Just let it be.As long as you're healthy it doesnt really matter.smh,when will people learn?

Amber "High on crack" Rose (Yes I said it)

Im don't usually do this but this girl has just reached new levels of utter class-less-ness(if theres such a thing).wow!!!Snake skin body suit????Just when I thought things couldnt get any worse...Dont get me wrong her body can handle a body suit but its jus not a good look.I will NEVER take her seriously now,ever!
How is Kanye still dating that girl?Everything about her presentation screams HO!!!!!Anyway I guess he knows the real A.Rose.And funny thing is she is the type of girls Kanye disses in his raps;girls who take their clothes off to get ahead and do the video rounds to get noticed.Everytime I listen to one of his songs its like he's mocking her,hahahahahaha!!!E.g "I'll do anything for a blonde dyke and she'll do ANYTHING for the lime light." At least he's honest,hahaha!

A long walk....

I honestly think we women are mad sometimes or that we need medication for our mood swings.Im beginning to annoy myself.The hormones went crazy on me this morning,woke up in a good mood only to crash an hour later,ugh!And the annoying thing is not even I understand that mood nonsense.I guess that's why when men ask their women what's wrong they always get "nothing" and a shrug in return because honestly we are just as confused as you are.There are times when I'll be close to tears or have a permanent scowl on my face or have something negative to say about everything but have no justification for it whatsoever,none at all!Bk knows how to deal with me when I get like that though.Always makes me smile,unfortunately I couldn't see him today.But I fought back,I decided I wasn't gonna sit around snapping everyones head off for no good reason so I turned off my phone and took a walk and bought myself some chocolate-always works :-)
I actually walked to and from the filling station without accepting lifts from anyone,thas a big deal cz im laaaaazy!!!I decided today was "don't hit on a girl day" so I ignored all the attempts by guys to say hello or stop me,I was on a chocolate mission,lol.
Musically I let Jay-Z's Reasonable Doubt,K'Naans Trabadour and Kid Cudi's Man on the moon keep me company during my walk.Why is it though that even when you have both headphones on people still feel the need to talk to you thwarting any attempt to be antisocial?smh.Annoying.
When I got back home I was happy and calm,could have been a sugar high though,lol.
Excited to get some sleep and wake up tomorrow,the job hunting continues.sigh.
*Yawn!*Off to bed!

Whitney Houstons back!!!

This is a fans vid of Ms Whitney performin in Central Park.Im so happy she made it back to the world of the living!!!Though she was done for a minute there!!Her voice has weakened slightly but I hope she doesnt give up,im sure theres a number 1 album in her somewhere!Yey for Whit!!! :-)