Koop Island Blues....

In another life I would have been a dancer, contemporary dancer specifically.I love it!!Hiphop dance is cool and all but I love what contemporary dance does to the female body,plus the flexibility you gain.If I could just drop everything now and go to dance school I would!What I would give to be taught by Mia Michaels!She is a genius!Brilliant artistic mind!So sad that she's no longer on so you think you can dance.Hope she comes back,I love her choreography.
The clip above is of a routine that she choreographed on the show in season 5 and I just adore its cheekiness,lol.For reasons that will become evident after you've watched,its known as "the butt dance".She said it was a classic French inspired tale of two "cat and mouse" lovers.I think she interpreted it perfectly,Tom and Jerry immediately sprung to mind when I was watching it (but of course Tom was never in love with Jerry,lol,that would have been a bit weird), or the french movie "Priceless".I love the song she chose too;Koop Island Blues by Koop.
Maybe one day I shall buy a one way ticket to the U.S and enroll in some Dance school,but until then I shall save up for ballroom dance classes here and keep my dancing dreams alive by watching shows like these....sigh.

Hopeless romantic...

OMG,im such a mushy creature!!!
I was reading some article on MSN called 25 little things you do that guys secretly love link: 25 little things...
Im the type of girl that gives little excited yelps if i get flowers or I unintentionally go into a soft baby voice asking "are you sure?awwwww baby!" if he buys me something I wanted but didnt think he would get it for me,lol!
I love romance!sigh.

Graduation Weekend,good times!

So the festivities are over,back to reality.
The graduation ceremony wasnt as bad as I'd thought it would be,kept myself entertained during the boring parts by chatting with a friend of mine.After the ceremony had lunch with the parents,my sister,cousins and my uncle at Primi-best place for pasta!sigh, i could do wit some pasta right about now....
In the evening I had dinner with some friends at News Cafe,I didnt actually eat though,I got a little too carried away taking photo's and drinking so by the time we needed to order I was waaaaay too tipsy to eat,would've probably ended up throwing up.
Afterwards we went to a friends house for poker.I was too exhausted to join in though and went home after an hour or so.I met my ex boyfriend too,this world is waaay too small!!!Turns out he knows my male friends from high school.He's the same though,hasn't changed a bit.Talks the same,same height,same accent and I bet he kisses the same too (his awful kissing was the reason I dumped him,lol!)
Twas nice to see my mummy again,she was so happy she baked 3 cakes for me and my cousins.Its only Thursday and 2 of those cakes are practically finished,lol,my mummies a beast in the kitchen!She also made some super nice chicken which had all of us asking for her recipe.When Im brave enough Ill try replicating her chicken.
So all in all it was a good weekend,had fun.
Gotta go do some work now,mwah!

Im a b*&%$# in the morning....

Im going crazy,have been for the past few days.
Im panicking about everything and anything and worrying at the same time,disgusting combination!Ive been driving Bk up the wall with my endless pouting and sulking and as always Im wondering how he hasn't gone mad himself.Instead of telling me to get lost he's called every night and tried to make me feel better.*blush* Lucky me.
So why am I worried? Im graduating this weekend,my research paper was accepted for the research conference thingy at University which means I have to find funds to attend the conference,prepare for the presentation and prepare a short biography.My graduation has created humungous headaches for me. The shoes my cousin sent aren't here yet and might not get here in time because there was a postal strike in the UK plus she fears the shoe might be too small.Go figure,that would just be friggin fantastic.
I spent the better part of the week running around looking for a dinner dress and again I am reminded why it sucks to be in Africa!!!!Lots of casual clothes here but nothing for special occassions,unless your aim is to look like a beauty pagent contestant.
So I decided ufck it,Ill ho it out (shout out to Amber Rose!) this time and bought a long top that shall serve as my dress for the night,lol,Im shameless!But Ill do it with self respect,I will make sure I dont bend over or sit without my legs being crossed.See?Self respect!
My biggest problem though is my amazingly over inflated expectations.In my head this weekend is supposed to be super duper fantastic! At first I wasn't excited but then I let myself get excited and now Im just worried my expectations won't be met and so far thats the way things seem to be headed.crap! Ah well,Ill find other reasons to celebrate in my life so Ill just try and make the most of it.

[This totally has nothing to do with the post but my cousin keeps talking to me tho I have headphones on and Im clearly busy typing somethin....weird.I say "hmmm" or nod every now and then,lmao!Im evil]

♫♫na na na na,na na na na,hey hey hey,gooooodbye!!♫♫

Lmao!I love the title of this post!!
Ive lost a friend,and frankly I couldnt care less!
And given the way my former friend handled the situation that brought us to this point,they couldnt care less either,so I guess all is right with the world.
Ive actually almost reached the point of indifference,hahahahaha!!Who'd have thought it would end like this?smh.
Not long ago we were up each other's a-holes,lol!sharing this and that,partners in crime and homies to the death.Now it just seems stupid that I even gave away that much trust.
I think we were in lust (lol,friendship lust),which I have come to find is as fleeting as the pleasure it brings.
Im still slightly angry/hurt though.I have moments,just moments,where Im speaking to him but thinkin "UFCK YOU!!!" and come dangerously close to saying it,lol.Cz I feel stupid for believing the act.Ah well,he cant fool me twice.
But at the end of the day,its all good.At least he has enough integrity to not go putting all the stuff I spewed in private on blast.
Yeah we had good times and he held it down when I needed a friend a couple of times,but I must remember that its not just your good actions that are testament to your character, your bad ones are too.
So off I go humming: "na na na na,na na na na, hey hey, gooooodbye!!"

Artist of the week...music to my eyes.

Im a big fan of art generally,whether it be paintings, drawings or photography.I tend to gravitate towards the more deviant/erotic genre though,lol.My wallpaper collection mainly consists of lots of tastefully drawn half naked girls (I think so anyway), a variety of pictures with gothic elements and anime art (Im very intrigued by asian and gothic culture).So I have decided since I have the time, every week I'll endevour to find an artist an put up a pic or two by them.I'll start with my absolute favourite;Luis Royo (shown above).He's a spanish artist as the name suggests and does alot of dark fantasy art and most of them are either paintings or sketches.I came across him about 4 years ago through Bk who had a massive collection of erotic fantasy wallpaper.(I blame him!)
I cant imagine what a conversation with Luis Royo must be like or what goes on in his mind given some of the art that he has created,.He definately thinks outside the box!If you're interested in seeing more of his work follow this link: Luis Royo Fantasy ,be warned some of his stuff is quite explicit!

Behind every successful man there is a woman...

It seems, from looking back at all romantic relationships I've been involved in and that I have witnessed, that the men tend to be the ones dictating the course of the relationship(not always but most of the time).
I suppose that can be attributed to the fact that we've been raised in patriarchal societies where we've been told men are the leaders,protectors and providers of the family unit and therefore when in a union with a man,a woman's role is one of support.For example there is a saying that goes: Behind every successful man there is a woman.
So I personally have always believed that I should support my significant other to help him become the leader that he needs to be.And of course I know some men also do the same for their female counterparts nowadays though its still a relatively new concept for the man to play a supporting role to a womans life.
I have no problem with women playing a supporting role to their significant others however what I don't like is when men abuse that privalege.Yes it's a privalege.Because more often than not supporting someone involves some compromise on your part.A simple example is one of my parents;my mother had to quit her job just when she had qualified to receive extra benefits from her employers and leave her friends to follow my father to a new country because he wanted to find better oppotunities for his career.Now of course he was doing this for the benefit of his family and we are happier now but my mother has had to abandon her career and become a housewife.She supported him and also compromised her goals for the bigger picture.
Now some men are selfish but still expect your support.They want to take time for themselves,tend to their own happiness,disregard your needs and still expect to have you waiting for them when they are done searching their souls.
What differs from woman to woman is how much she can put up with before she decides what she can't compromise on.I used to think I had to go all out,be that woman that will follow you to the ends of the earth to prove her devotion to you but I think it's time to redefine my boundaries and increase my list of things I cannot compromise on.Some women will put up with verbal or physical abuse,cheating,disrespect,disloyalty,stupidity etc hoping that one day this man shall wake up and see what an amazing supportive woman he has.There needs to be a balance,do not compromise more for your partner than he'd compromise for you.Because one day you'll wake up and wonder why the hell you're feeling so miserable and your life is spent making his comfortable.I refuse to see that happen to me.I will still be supportive and I will compromise but Im setting some standards and expectations that make me happy that I expect to be fulfilled.And if they are not met then Ill cut my losses and move on.Life's to short to spend it living for someone else.